shopping trip with chin on fri and sat. quite shuang. bought a new top and skirt. damn it. spend money lyk water. arghhh. cny is coming.. and erm. yummy food. shit. i need to control. and stop eating. so i will start to stop gaining weight.,... arghhhh. yes! i shall only eat a small piece of ba kua at every house i go to. thats not alot rite. yes. hmm. erm. jia n chin are both daoing me now. i have no idea why. but jia.,.. i was sleeping!!! and i woke up at 12. then i realised tat my phone has no batt. and i replied asap liao. chin. i have no idea why u are daoing me. yes, so anyway, i m bored and i cant wait for cny to start. if only i can pon sch on mon. but i ahve chem prac. and i dun want to make up on my own next time. haiz. results comin g out soon... arghhhhh. damn it. damn near and damn fast la. i dun want. any kind soul volunteer to help me collect and call me to tell me. i dun dare go.. i'm such a coward. damn it. can we backtrack to the day after o's. when we had one whole month of schless and homeworkless days. when everyday is a play day. arghhhh. i dun want.... damn it/ this is a senseless entry. and my blog is getting so so stagnant

hahahah. hmmm. training is not that bad after all. ahhaha. but i still sux at long runs. i am the last/ next to yamini. but thats bad cos she is sick. i'm not sick, so why am i still running so slowly???? damn bad. but it really helps alot when u listen to ur radio when u run. but just that all the songs that come out are lyk not veh nice during the time we jog. arrghhh. i want a mp3. but no money. damn it. hmm. mel... hope u r feeling much better. if u r reading this.. hahah, AH DAH LOVES YOU... oh and thanks chin... for keep encouraging me during the runs and in the game... love u babe. arghhh. hahaha. i feel so loved. but why no one tagging my blog... and youmin. hahah. i dunno ur new link. u nv tell me. and klar. notice that i have veh lil links on my blog. so just put ur name there to make it seems longer. hahahah. yes. and for the suicides and the 5m runs thingy. arghhh. think i just need to ying cheng and just complete it and try not to be the last.. arghhh. damn it. haiz. i am missing 7788. u noe i dun eeven see half of u guys now, only chin. sigh. so sad. get together soon!!!

GUYS ARE SUCH JERKS!!! how can anyone ever let them come between their friendships???

aching all over now... argh. tomolo is killer training again. getting kind of depressed everytime i start thinking of it. and him. arghhh. why so difficult. why cant i be lyk super zai and just be damn zai in everything i do. lyk netball. and other stuff. arghhh. i'm s depressed piece of sai. and i think i lyk just affected the whole, ok. not that kua zhang. but those pple who always hang ard with me esp 7788 with my stupid depressed period. argh. thot it was that time of the mth. but i missed it. shit. been ages since i missed once, damn. anyway. sorry guys. if i been a piece of selfish ass who always drown in my sorrow and make u guys drown in mine too. i m really sorry.

to CHIN: thanks for being there for me esp during training and when i have no one to pei wo. and counseling me thru msn lyk everytime. and for always sitting with me during lectures. and erm for tolerating all my bullshitness and my tehness. and my irritatingness. and i'm sorry for being so qian bian and such an asshole today. thnks girl.

to XY: thanks for being the high one when i am down. thanks for toking to me on msn. thanks for being the boy crazy one so that i wont feel spas whenever i am behaving spasly. thanks for being my longest fren. i am glad that we are definitely closer now than we were last time. thank you for just being there.

shuyan was toking bout death the other day. wad she said made sense and i totally agree with her. death... wad will really happen when u die? just ceased to exist on earth anymore or u will go to heaven/hell. or will you be recarnated (however u spell it) or wad. hopefully it will be another level. but i guess u wont rmb any stuff from ur previous lifetime. so that wont be really nice. hmm. ceasing to exist. just disappearing into thin air? doesnt sound veh exciting either. having another life. hmm. but i wouldnt want to have another new family. i love my family now. and if there is really another life time. i want to be born into my family again. ok. this is really weird. but... oh well. but i like living, tho its tong ku. but my family and 7788, u make it worth it. ok. i'm still aching. and there's training agaiin tomolo. sat's gathering is the only thing i am looking forward to at all. tho there is training before that again. sighz. i noe i always dun end off veh nicely. but well. i dunno how to. so yah. bye

arghh. my blog is really stagnant now. hahah. blogging more on the 7788 blog now. hahah. can in if u can. :P. hahaha. yah. i realised its so fun blogging with so many pple. ahhaha. all the bitching and gossiping and guys-gawking. i noe my lit !!!! alliteration. hahah. fine. not funny. anyway. i got a new haircut. which many of u noe by now. still trying to learn how to style it nicely in the way the pro guy did for me. but so far. no matter how much gel i appiled on my hair. it still looks the same. hahahah. so. i concluded that i should just not waste my dad's gel... hmm. chin is lyk hot property among jia's og now la. all they tok about now is her!!! hahaha. sigh..the sad side of life of having such a chio fren. ahhaha. anyway. i grew fatter now!!! i'm the heaviest in class. (for the girls) YUCKS. ohhh. i got into netball. hahahah. teamates with chin, valene, ah lau!!! haha. should be quite fun for a year. then... the next yr dunno how. sigh.. i think chances of making squad this year is really slim. i will be content just to be a reserve. seriously. haiz. hmmm. OHHH. eeks got in too. haiz.. sighz. hope she dun join. ok. shall not be so mean. hmm. china n jia are lyk making progress with their guys.. hmm. envious envious. hahahah. jia you!!!

love so divine... fantastic show man. ahhh. so nice. i'm in love with that show now. ahh. then there's another show coming up. a moment to remember.... looks damn sweet and nice. yah, everyone is lyk in a lovey dovey mood nowadays. hahah. esp shi ting and sijia. that stupid sijia ah. whole day zhong se qing you. ahhahah. and xy is super duper boy crazy. hahahah. ten years of feelings suddenly unleashed. hahahaha. haiz. was just thinking about it on my bed when i got stuck doing maths. i have no idea how to put it into words la, cos it just flashes by. yah. shall try to sort my thots out. ahhah. chin said all three of us are boy crazy. hmm. and yah, we have our eye candies. but i guess, eye candies are just meant to be looked at. at least to me la. i am not the kind of person who will take initiative and wadsoever. i am not the kind of girl who will erm. i dunnoe. the sort of things that girls will do when they like someone. according to chin, every girl knows how to do that. how to get the guy? maybe not everybody will succeed, but everybody will try and at least know wad to do. ahhaha. yah. nvm. just babbling over here. hahah. anyway. i think i should find myself not so chio and hot frens. arghhhhhhh. that stupid poh chin leng, and lynn and valene and everybody la ok. all so chio. ahh. make me feel so zi bei only. ahhaha. kidding la. i am honoured to have chio frens. hahaha. small eyes are good. hahaha. dun care. i must be a cool nerdette and stop being boy crazy.yes. mugging time. ahhhh. can u believe it, its lyk the third day of sch. official sch day. and the whole of rj is already so kiasu. i;m going to die of stressness already. walau, rgs oso not lyk tt lor. arghhh. and i cant do my maths tutorial..... ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh. stressed!!! hockey tryouts tomolo. wish me luck!